Tuesday, May 21, 2013

Thirty.

So, I arrived at thirty.

Welcome to the club, begitu kata orang. Apa yang membuat tigapuluh begitu istimewa? Karena sudah melewati quarter-life crisis? Belum tentu. Karena sudah tidak duapuluhan lagi? well, they said maturity doesn't necessarily comes with age. Sudah nikah? Belum juga (kalau kawin sih, sud- ups!)

Jadi, tiga puluh tahun kemarin, udah ngapain aja lo?

Yang pasti, ada mimpi-mimpi yang tercapai, menemukan teman-teman yang setia, mengalami pembelajaran-pembelajaran berharga, dan ada keluarga yang takkan meninggalkan saya.

Saya sedang beranjak ke pos berikutnya. Menyusun mimpi-mimpi baru, merencana misi-misi hidup. Doakan saya sampai dengan selamat, dan tetap dengan senyum mengembang.




Monday, January 21, 2013

Pesta Malam

Ini sebentuk puisi kala jiwa dan raga tengah terikat emosi. 
Emosi memang salah satu obat mujarab perangkai kata :)



penoreh lukaku,
dengarkan ceritaku.

milikku sebentuk mimpi,
membakar bumimu hingga tandas,
mencabut akarmu hingga burai,
lalu pesta pora keras-keras.

luka-luka terkubur dalam,
dalamnya sumur siapa yang tahu.
biar perih di malam-malam,
menjerit hingga suara parau!

damai duniaku di negeri impian,
mereguk bahagia di atas tanah legam.
harapku kau membusuk di penantian,
tertelan neraka hitam nan kejam.




Saturday, January 12, 2013

Clouds Unloaded

The best thing one can do when it's raining is to let it rain.  ~Henry Wadsworth Longfellow

I've got this 'little thing called love' for the rain, as long as it's not hailing, storming, or flooding - of course. Raindrops are somewhat musical to my ears. One of my favourite rituals back when I lived across my university building was staring at droplets of water falling from the sky through my third-floor tiny studio apartment's only window. I just found it quite sentimental. And then I write, or draw, or paint, and my mind seems to just go with the flow. The power of 'water feature'? I don't really know.

When I'm outside, it's my kind of entertainment to observe around. People with umbrellas, people with ponchos. Some drenched and don't really care. Kids holding onto their mum's hand, dads carrying their babies up. Puddles everywhere, like a jumping game for people chasing trams or simply trying to find shelter. It's commotion, even before hail comes to say hello. And watching from above, the sky doesn't seem to care.

Despite the chaos, I'm faithful to my love. You'll see me folding my umbrella, taking a seat on the tram, maybe staring at my soaked converse sneakers. I'll get home, having a bowl of instant noodle soup, a warm shower, and tucked myself under the quilt, respectively.

And secretly hoping the rain won't stop till the sun shine up.

Friday, January 11, 2013

Another year.

Yes, another year and I've abandoned this space for too long already. I've been longing to come back for writing (and reading) but time only became available just recently. Twenty-twelve unfolds lots of stories of my life, including events I've never expected I'd experienced.

Survived supporting myself, landed on a design job, attended my first two concerts (which were awesome, btw!), and getting mum a holiday! The latter was one fine collaboration of me and my brother. Ah, how I miss them. Without her, I would not be here - in a fine land far away, with a master's degree and living on my own.

For twenty-thirteen, I'll embark a new decade of my life. 'Thirty' seems scary, but maybe not really. Feels like I was only twenty yesterday :) Regrets and disappointments are too many to mention. But there were achievements and cherished moments in between, and without every single of them, I wouldn't arrive here.

I got a steady job and paid my trip home (along with rent, bills, clothes, food..) -that concludes my last year's goal. This year's? I'll go with some simple ones ; live healthier, savings saving savings! and be more productive. Everything else follows :)

Happy New Year!